Friday, March 30, 2007
been extremely down these few days.... it's hard to explain where feelings are concern.... hubby had to look out for my strezz tablet which have only 2 left..... i do not know where the fault lies... was it for the wrong decision to resign from my work and caused a zero stable income for almost 3mths which leads to outstanding bills piling, inturn, cause ppl close to me affected by it too.....but all these are changes and challenges in life where we had to be strong and overcome it slowly..... i do not blame Mum who was worried over all these..... its easier when u are not staying with parents cos' they wouldnt noe the financial constraints u are having.... BUT ME.... i had to face with financial as well as mental probs of others being the upmost priority... its not easy.. . and i have been enduring it until it finally breakdown.... BUT does anyone concern about how I feel? Fingers are pointing at me without first understanding the root... i do not mean to be rude... but i simply cant hold it anymore....(ppl will accuse u wen u are harsh to ur elder and they wouldnt care even if you are trying to prove your rights).....been doing all kinds of planning and budgetting with the future income.... need to return the loans from Mum asap... so that i will not have the feeling of guilt.... i am considering of having a helper prob towards end of the year, if the planning goes well, so that i could remove some load off Mum's shoulder... i understand she is very tired lately after bibik left... but its her decision for not having one, apart from trying to release some financial load off my back during the "retiring" period.... i really wish at this point of time, loans lend to frens be cleared soon... so that i would be able to clear my part too....EXAMS.... another headache... i have not even start revising.... how can i when my mind is already fully occupied with probs.... chest hurt, headaches... arrrggghhh...
princezzD remembered on 4:40 PM.
Thursday, March 22, 2007
been very busy lately..... on last sunday, my bro's kid was at my home, as my bro n his wife plus lil yathrib had to attend to kak yati's mum who was critically ill at that point of time.... with the clearing up of fishes which hubby got from senoko (he didnt buy them, he basically pick them up, and they are still fresh), sending the fishes to close relatives (as there are too many of them), to sending didi to madrasah which we only found out that its closed due to the sch holiday, to making the almond chocs, going thru' didi's homework, and finally a last delivery of the fish to an uncle in jurong.... that was the event on sunday....
on mon, hubby admitted to CGH at around 6pm for his ENT surgery the following day.... i did not accompany him there as i had my marketing revision with John, plus the result of the marketing project.... CONGRATS i would say to the team including myself, who had scored 96% for almost an incomplete project, but the effort that chinta and i had put in was really paid off......
tues, i took half day leave to visit hubby who had undergone his surgery in the morning..... i was extremely very tired, and at around 6.30pm i left him for my HR mass revision.... in class, i couldnt give 100% concentration, probably due to tiredness, and having the seat at the back of the class is really not a good idea, as i couldnt hear the lecturer well and almost everyone is chatting....gosh! better have the front seat, for the marketing mass revision.....
wed, i took the whole day leave, as hubby is due to discharge..... i made didi skip her class yesterday, so that i have a companion in the train.... she enjoyed herself very much, maybe becos' its been quite sometimes she hadnt took the train.... it's pretty packed as we left home around 0815.....
once hubby was discharged, we headed home straight by cab, thanks to his mgmt for the basket of fruits n flowers, that didi was not able to enjoy another ride home by train..... i really had a good nap the moment i reach home.... was awoke around 3.30pm but i am still very sleepy....
after maghrib, hubby decided to go out with the kids along..... we went to causeway point timezone.....
didi n aniqah had her fun in there, they took the horse ride, had ball games, and the best part, was my precious thots plastic full of sweets from the game we had.... its funny to see lil aniqah picking the sweets up.....
well, both my princezz were really enjoying themselves, that the moment they got into the car to head home, aniqah was the first to fall asleep..........
princezzD remembered on 1:07 PM.
Saturday, March 17, 2007
finally, am able to update my blog. it was bits n pieces the last entries that i made....
12.03.07, marks a new era in my career.... at MOE, as an ITB Budget n Procurement Executive. half day of induction we had, made frens with new recruits, and finally, went to my department to meet up with my colleagues. a quick brief by my 'buddy' or 'RO' on my job scope. an interesting reporting time i was told, u can come in at 7.30am and ends at 5pm, 8am to 5pm and so on until 9am to 7pm.... i chose to come in at 0830 but the last three days of the week, i was there at 0800. and every friday, we are release half an hour early (take note, we do not practice signing in...) on my second day, an intro to the whole of ITB dept was made again... on my first day, i only met up with my section colleagues.... and the 2nd day was a little hectic as i had my first hands-on on the system... NFS@gov, GeBiz... etc...
wed to friday, i was still enjoying my 'honeymoon' period at work..... not much work, n i almost fell asleep.... furthermore, my RO had to attend course, and therefore, made me the little pricezz in my own cubicle..... hehe
the submission of the marketing report was disastrous..... we didnt made it for our executive summary, table of contents as well as the market industry... i am crossing my fingers for the result which will be this monday..... it's really disappointing... i do not know how could i express it in words.... had a conversation with my course buddy yesterday on our way home.... the tension that i felt, the way people react which i felt they are trying to put the blame on me.... sometimes, u can feel, the difference in character of your close buddy towards you... as if, its going to be the end of the friendship... what can i say rite? its up to you anyway whether you wanna befriend someone or not... as for me, i am always neutral towards anything, juz dont irritate me.. i used to not to believe in certain sayings, "when u have new 'clicks' u tends to forget your old ones"... but it does happen sometimes.... i am taking a break from all this... its too heartbreaking i would say... probably just let nature takes its course....
i have yet to start my thesis or revision on my exams which will be due in THREE WEEKS time, gonna make the almond chocs tomorrow, for my fren and hubby's frens who ordered them.. SYUKUR, the orders are still ongoing.... at least it will help on our weekly transportation allowance... hubby has been travelling on public transport too, as he has yet to redeem his bike... but life still goes on, we are still doing fine with it, our relation are still going very well.... just that, since i had start working, and he happens to be on the afternoon shift, we had little conversation... the moment he's back, i am fast asleep.... the only time when we converse to each other was during my lunch break to make the calls to him....
cuzzie Eal, planned a trip during the June holiday to Port Dickson, after discussion with hubby, we decided to follow them... this is the 2nd time we are going to Port Dickson, the last one was last year, for the mothers' day celebration.... it's time to chill out a little, thou' its only like OH, port dicckson je.... but i believe its the family outing of fun that is most important...
hmm, gotta end this here, preparing to visit my sis in law mum who is very sick... sista is on the way to pick us up....
princezzD remembered on 4:02 PM.
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
have you ever wonder how FRUSTRATING it is to submit an INCOMPLETE report????
princezzD remembered on 11:05 PM.
Monday, March 12, 2007
MY FIRST DAY AT WORK........
WILL UPDATE ONCE I'M FREE - BUSY NOW IN MEETIN DATELINES FOR THE MARKETING PROJECT....
princezzD remembered on 10:34 PM.
Sunday, March 11, 2007
i am having a very bad headache since friday.... must be my migraine again. i am very worried about this marketing project... slept very late again yesterday, after msn wz chinta and reen, i was back to assignment again... gosh, cant do it again today, as i had to get up early tommorrow for work. i have this feelings that i am not able to complete this project... i really hope someone in the group could take over to do the final conclusion. still got another bottle of almond choc to be done... bila nak buat agaknya... really got no time. going to work tommorrow with only 10 bucks with me is another headache... lucky had already top-up my ez-link... haiz... financial probs, project probs... arrrgghhh.... patience is the best solution....
princezzD remembered on 10:04 AM.
Friday, March 09, 2007
i am very stresssseeedddd up with this marketing project.... aaarrrggghhhh...... if i dont keep reminding myself to be positive, i definitely gonna GIVE THIS UP!!!!
princezzD remembered on 11:17 AM.
Wednesday, March 07, 2007
finally
it's been confirmed that i will be starting my new job this monday.... that's call for a celebration on my first day i suppose.... received a letter from MOE today to confirm the department i will be in, as well as the date and time i have to report..... it also stated that i will be going for a half day of induction on my first day of work....was going through one-third of my project when i had to stop and pick elder princezz up from school, then help mum up rolling the kuih dadar, as she cut her fingers while clearing up the dishes... then when hubby's back, we brought the kids down to play with their tricycle and skate skooter while us, washed our car up... it's so dirty and i took the chance up to ask hubby to clean it as my uncle and unty will be taking a lift from our car to go for 'tahlil'.... me and the kids stays home, as i wanted to actually look thru' my project.... a short update for now, as my main purpose was to clear up the 'mess' in my tagboard....
princezzD remembered on 9:26 PM.
tagboard...
okay... niece Nurul..... as requested, i have a tagboard now.... juz have to ignore the previous shout outs in the tagboard.... i had to re-edit everything into my old blog....
princezzD remembered on 12:37 PM.
these few days i've been running around like a mad woman... on saturday, my hubby n i plus the two kiddos, walked all the way up to the shop n save to buy the sour cream... sour as it is, its not available and we replace it with yougart, for my peach cheese cake. Once home, hubby n i prepared everything up and we start doing our cheesecake.... after baking, elder princezz n us drive down to sembawang phoon huat to buy the almonds and choc bar for those guys who ordered the choc.... once home, again, we got everything prepared and start doing the almond cookies.... half way thru' hubby cheated and left me doing the stuff all alone..... (he had to attend to his mum lah..) finished doing it around 11pm....
the next day on sunday, after didi returned from her madrasah, we drive down to changi aloha... this time i was forced to drive, cos' the initial driver had a bad diarrhoe.... (he took 4pills at one go, juz to stop 'it')...and so, cuzzins met, little kiddos had fun...
hubby left as early as 0530 tis morning for work.... kesian dia, no more bike.... it'll be definitely very tiring for him.... at least, i dont have to travel that far anymore.... i left for paya lebar, and had asked my sis to accompany me to do my PS card.... a total of 2hrs of travelling to and fro, but the photo taking only lasted for 5mins.... once back, prepare the banana cake for mum to bring to religious class.... very very tired.... i juz finished clearing things up, and now, waiting for the cake to be baked.....
i wonder if i'll be able to do my marketing research after my bath... chinta had asked for our part of researching... has yet to give it to her....
gosh!!
i was very upbeat yesterday.... in the morning, went out to buy my catridges for the project printing, after that at around 1.30pm i left for MOE, i was damned blur, i chose the wrong route, which is a further way towards the building. Looking at the watch its 15mins to my appointment time, i decided to turn back, and walked up the stairs to go to the opposite road... hell, it began to rain... walking as fast as i could, i began to pant the moment i reach the security to change my pass. the pakcik is very cute lah, i told him i have an appt with Nicole, and he said, oh, she dont like people to come to early, but when i look at my watch its 2mins before the scheduled time, handling the pass over to me he then said, "skrg, awak CEPAT2 naik...." i laughed my heart out....
so, the appointment goes smoothly.... there are two of us in the room, we were briefed on all the benefits and had to sign a few documents.... syukur i would say, thou' the pay is only like 200 bucks difference from my previous job, i believe it'll be a good start for me.... i've been assigned to the ODD dept which i found out from my childhood fren who is also in MOE, it means, Organisational Development Division... i decided to start on the 12th..... cos' we're given a choice of either on the 12th or 29th... after the process, i went home taking a cab, as it was raining heavily...
once home, i was rushing to clear up the project, printing out the report.... i have only an hour before i had to leave for class...
finally, one down, another one to go - marketing.....
i had just finished doing my final part of HR project.... am very tired now.... after discussing with chinta at home about the HR project, we proceed to Civic centre library after 6pm to meet up with rest to discuss on marketing.... such a waste of time i feel, as no conclusion was derived.... was telling chinta that once i'm back home, i juz wanna shut myself off from the pc, but situation changed. the thoughts of submitting the report tomorrow, and has yet to tidy up and finish up the project spins my head.. therefore, dragging my feet towards the pc, and let my ideas flow. finally, its done, waiting for any editing from chinta...
deciding whether to start work on the 5th or on the 12th.... the HR officer called me up again in the afternoon, to tell me to come down today instead of next thursday... and i took the opportunity to ask when will i probably be starting work. she gave me a choice on whether i wanna start on the 5th or 12th....
i probably start on the 12th, need to clear up the marketing project as well as the almond orders from frens.... need to make some income as i will need it for my transportation and meals to work.
hopefully, this changes will goes smoothly.... insyallah....
lost another uncle yesterday.... my arwah abah elder brother... it was a shock to most of us, cos' we didnt hear him sick.... he had a fall at home, and death comes after.... (semoga rohnya dicucuri rahmat. amin). he is scheduled to be buried today... and while i am writing this post, he is currently being prayed for....
was awaken by a msged received at 830 this morning... it was a msged generated by moe, to call the HR officer. so, up on my feet, and i made a call to them... first question imposed was, are you currently working, and no was my answer... and she gave me the great news that majority of us are waiting for, u've been selected for the last session, and i had scheduled a formal meeting for you to attend to be briefed of ur benefits and etc..... a ceiling pay of my grade was given, which means no increment till promotion...
after the last session with the officers last monday, i was telling my hubby of the job scope offered. it is towards, budgetting, procurement and quotations that they are offering in their IT dept, and there is only one vacancy... i wasnt very keen as i m not very familiar with it... and i told my hubby if i am not selected, its okay, hoping to be posted to other dept... but its okay, i've been fated to be there anyway... syukur, i would say...
the movie that i went last mon with hubby, was superb, worth watching for.... we're lucky to have got the sneak preview tixs. i was on my own to go to Orchard cineplex, and the funny part is, once i alighted at Somerset, i do not noe which direction to go. so the damn selengeh, made a call to a fren to ask, but she didnt answered. luckily, i saw mandarin hotel, and i walk towards it... haiz, dah lama tak naik train jln2 town, gini lah jadinya...
waiting for chinta now, to work on our projects.... headache, headache.... gotta go, will update soon again....
Posted by princezzD at 10:05 AM receiving orders for the almond chocs again.... wonder when i'm going to do it. hmm, last thurs, received a call from the HR dept, asking me to come down this monday, this time for a briefing session with the Info Tech Mgr, to see if i am suitable to be in his dept.... hoping that everything goes well. Hubby is giving me all the support, when i told him that i wasnt really excited about it, as this session doesnt constitute the confirmation of my position yet.
Hubby won a pair of sneak preview tickets to Rocky Balboa and Pathfinder, showing back-to back tomorrow. He's looking forward to it, and will be taking leave from work.
Completing the HR project soon, need to submit it by this Friday. Next focus will be marketing, damn, another, brain damage project to look into. And need to submit it the following week. Almost giving up on it.
Had to end this here, need to do editing for the HR.
hutang ringgit boleh ditembusi tetapi bukan dosa akhirat???
hutang yang tak dilunaskan didunia, akan dituntut diakhirat... dosa besar ataupun kecil itu adalah hukum Tuhan diakhirat juga....
when i mentioned that i am not going to look back, i meant what i said.... memories erased and dats final....
being called 'uneducated', cant blame, since new at driving, sent out messages like 'tai-long', dammit, are we the one owing the money? wake up!!!!!!! strategy of trying to delay payment??? by repeatedly mentioning "affair". so dat hubby n i would quarell and people out there watching in satisfaction?
patience has its limit.... its about time the loan is returned.... it was first delayed due to reason of delivery charges? fine, wat now? when i gave the benefit of an instalment minimal amt of 50bucks, i was given an answer, how long will it ends, how will i able to keep track of it? heard of this phrase, sikit-sikit lama-lama jadi bukit.... kalau tak mampu nak bayar banyak, bayar lah sikit, sekurang-kurangnya nampak keikhlasan nak bayar.... ini tidak, kal or msgs tak reply, and when we brought this up, the reply was, how would i know, who sent out the messages to me... TUHAN!!!
i surrendered myself, watever gonna happen between hubby n i, its a personal intake.... but YOUR job is to return OUR money back.....
had a conversation wz someone close....
how does it feel to live at the expense of others??? what do u understand by the term "courtesy"? wat about "initiative"? wat about spending more than wat u should, when the fact is, there are other priorities that u need to settle?
interesting topics right.... juz wanna leave this open.....
patience has its limit.... especially when it concerns cash.... there is no point repeating the word try when u did not try hard enuff... been very patience wz someone, whom had promised to settle things on an instalment basis, but, it was juz a gimmick.... if u think u are the one, bear this in mind, there are other people who is in deep difficulty than you are.... if u had loan someone, ensure that you return it back when the person needed it badly.... if u are not able to repay the loan, than do not borrow it.... its a lesson learnt on my part too....
am waiting patiently for any great news from one of the govt sector to get back to me regards to my interview... had already gone for the medical check ups as requested.... i really hope that i do not have to wait for too long for any news.....meanwhile, i am spending more time wz the pricezzezz as their 'bibik' had already been returned.... hmm,.... my tenants too will end their contract by end of this month.... until we got a replacement tenant, we definitely will be in a tight situation.... but i always hold this phrase in mind, "ade orang yang lebih susah dari kita, sekurang-kurangnya bersyukur yang kita masih ade bumbung di atas kepala kita"
a very short update.....
i pass my econs n accounts.... my very least expectations of it.....
syukur, alhamdulillah.....
THUMBS UP TO THE LIONS!!!! yooohoooo...... am all satisfied wz the way they played.... there's lot more of opportunities if you watch the game closely.... most importantly, its the CUP that we're all waiting for.... yeeehaaa....
Posted by princezzD at 5:19 PM i wish i am.... last friday was my last day at work, yup. i was on half day dat day... i had ordered 50pcs of orea muffin for my colleagues, and a cutey2 bookmark too. it was not a very2 sad day after all, spent the last few minutes of my day there taking pics wz my close colleagues. (will update the pics one of these days)
from there, hubby and i went down to plaza singapura to send his phone for repair, after that we watched Acapolypto before i head for school... great show, but u need to be 18 n above to watch the show...
hasnt got the time to update the blog.... juz finished my batch of choc chips for those who ordered. next will be the tarts, which probably will start them tomorrow, then followed by almond rocher... in an hour, will have to get ready for marketing class....
a great call i received yest, i was asked to come for an interview at MOE next wed.. yup, i wish i get the position... a month's break is good enuff.... hmm, at least the cookies orders for CNY will help a little....
mum, hubby n i have decided to 'release' our maid.... since, she wasnt really of much help... kiddos still prefer to be taken care of granny.... at least a little financial load off our back....
well, a monthly loan instalments promised by a 'fren' wasnt kept hold... juz dun understand... not even a courtesy to call nor msg.... cant these plan be fixed monthly???? haiz, cakap pun tak guna...
alrite, will update again when i'm free.........
i was back from my class and gave my hubby a call as usual... then hubby asked if i had received any orders for the new year tarts, choco chips n almond chocs from kak arnie... i said not yet.
guess wat i heard from him... an unexpected news.... i have got many orders from his colleagues,
17 small bottles of choc almonds, about 10 bottles of 50pcs of tarts and i think around 14 small bottles of choco chips......... yeah i am so happy.... tired aside.... dun wanna tink of it first....
now, get few more orders and make a stop, in case i am too worn out... i guess, i need assistant, maybe my best niece Nurul, can help, since she has yet to find job... hahaha.....
(help wz income okay....)
having a bad cough and a fever today..... counting down to the last days of my job. hmm, i received a call last friday to come down for an interview tomorrow, for a position of scholarship officer in Prime Minister Office. I so called turned it down as i am not able to take leave but told the person who called me if i could be scheduled to another day probably on friday, as that would be my last day of work..... as usual, he would say, he will call me back, but i know, that i will not expect any call from him... haiz....
started my new term last week, Principles of Marketing and Human Resource... both facilitators are great, both name John... had fun in their lesson.... guess, this time has to start early notes and revision (ya rite!)
been very lazy lately to update the blog, thou' at times i feel the urge to sign in into it....
will update again another day when i am available.... busy wz job application lah now... hehe!
princezzD remembered on 12:25 PM.
wat a bored days to end 2006..... it's been raining heavily the past few days (except yest) that it makes me feel so sick cos' all the way to work n from werk we're always wet... my sis probably will not be around tomorrow to gather for aidiladha... as yest she had already left for KL trip on her Subaru car... hubby wont be home too, as he'll be at the masjid helping out wiz the korbans.... and that will leave me wz the kiddos, mum and bibik.... haiz.... i hope chinta will come, at least to add some fun to the day.... and i wonder if lynn will come over too wz her mum.....
suddenly i feel like ...... I WANNA GO ON A HOLIDAY..... i wish i have a lot of cash, lyke wat i dreamt about the last two days... can u imagine me dreaming about hubby account having $80k in it.... hopeful dream.... told him about it, and we laugh our hearts out... $8 pun takde dalam account, thats wat we both said.... well, few more days to end my work at SilkAir.... yup, me leaving wz a heavy heart... i luv the job but becos' of the stress i have been having wz my idiotic supervisor, i decided to leave.... few of colleagues was surprised to hear about me leaving.... esp wen i said, wat my supv had done to me....
a little secret my hubby n i did was.... someone had advised us to get another car and rent it out.. yup, it's been finalised, thru onemotoring, we saw our new car plate no... SGP8040Y,(i think)... it's black hyundai verna, 1.6A... it'll be rent out to a company and we wont be seeing the car.... still in process of the renting agreement.... phew!!!(keep it to urself ppl, if u r reading dis. dun wish mummy to get worried for nothing)... a lot of loans to pay up.... credit cards, mummy loans...., outstanding bills.... hopefull, the year of 2007 will bring us fortune and happiness in the family... hopefull, by end of the year, a lil surprise of having a lil bundle of joy...
a week to a new year, a new resolution, a new werk environment....yup, yup,
i had tendered my resignation on the 2oth Dec 06, therefore, my last day of service shall be on the 19th Jan 07... where i'll be permanently working???? i am yet to know, but i'll probably be joining Kak Eal, in Feb 07....
had a day of fun yest at the garden fest in Suntec Convention Hall..... will upload some picts soon..
taking a break now after doing some 'kirai' on roti jala, waiting for the lil princezzez to wake up before we go to aunt's place for a gathering with my sis, and kak Eal's family... hubby will probably join us after he return from werk... okay, me got to go now, need to fill up the stomach since i had yet to have any food since morning.... chiao!!!!
princezzD remembered on 12:24 PM.
