Friday, July 20, 2007

FOCUS...

I really need to focus... my level of confidence is decreasing rapidly.... mind is fully taken up with unnecessary shits.... counting down 15 days (today inclusive) more to my organizational behavior paper.... i do not know which to start first... OB, stats, or HRM....

work proposal dateline is in a weeks time.... despite a rejection to a previous proposal, i'm trying to see if it could be re-consider, looking at the aspects of the manhours needed to cover all 360 schools against a one time charge to create a database.... else, to the needs of mail-merge, enhancing the current database, so as to minimize time needed to the charge back of GEMS and MyEdumail2....

i'm totally worn out, mentally and physically.... i really feels like running away from all this stress... due to all these disturbances, i feels like i'm a totally different person, either, i absorb all the nonsense attacking from all areas with patience, tolerance and ignorance to it, or i simply blew it up... how does it feels, if i were to keep silence... like a dummy.... enduring the pressure, i bet, my life will be cut short... which i think it would be better.... less sins to handle...

sorry gerlfrens, i'm just not myself... just letting out the 'clots' stuck in my heart and mind...

princezzD remembered on 9:49 AM.